I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, elokuuta 12, 2004
tears, tears and more tears
today the results came out for mt o's...since i was the first candidate for malay in the whole sch, it was super nerve wrecking...i was screaming my way up to hall...craziness...then mrs teo was like "for 4e, 98.5% passes"...my heart rate was like...sky high...i mean, there's no secret that my malay sucks...and not only that, after flunking my mid year paper big time (9 range hehe)...i was definitely panicking...so i cried...cos i was panicky...then when i got the result "marlina : B4, oral : distinction"...oooh mann...that felt sooo great...major improvement, particularly for oral...and i was jumping everywhere...sigh...happy not for long though...there were many tears...some bcos they were nervous like me...others of joy, others of sorrow...well...to see ppl with tears of joy...it was great...and amidst all the joy and the happy screams...well, there were a few forlorn characters...by the side, weeping softly...my heart goes out to all of you...and i spent alot of time hugging, finding tissue and talking to you guys...whatever it is...dun be disappointed...you didn't screw up your life...and to those who are retaking...dun worry abt your current results...there is no point doing that right now...what you do have to do is concentrate on doing what you intend to do...or else, re taking and getting the same grade will be just another blow...dun let that happen
well...i must say that just getting my b4 did not satisfy me...ran up to veli and guess what? he passed...YAY! and later, had to ask abangology whether my beloved bear bear did its job...and it did...WHEEEE...b3...thats more than i could ask of my little bear...so yep, dearie bear bear...i'll cherish you forever and ever...sayang-sayang you...and keep you close to my heart...or rather, my sch skirt pocket...hehe...*muacks*...its not as if the council and clarinets dunno my infatuation with my dear bear bear...my "partner"...cute...oooh...and my veli told me that he'd get a 9...then i told him he'd get a 7 at least...look what he got...a 7...mulut masin...i'm sooo figgin happy that he passed...
to my "
you-know-who"...i hope you're happy with what you got...and that if you weren't and are retaking...that you do even better...oh yes, i have something to say...
natsakar aunis nojlap... hope you understand...and best of luck for your upcoming oral...
ya oral...it was ok i guess...came home early today bcos of the oral and we just got the mock paper to bring home...my oral was yesterday though...the examiners kept laughing...i wonder if its a gd sign...
i'm tired out aft all the excitement...now its time to go ahead and concentrate on my other 8 subjects...esp music...my passion...my prob is that its not only music...its HISTORY of music...i need a history person to tutor me...aaaaah...i'm dying...so yea, any of my history peeps out there...and those peeps who do read...pls pls help me...i need to know how to memorize...and to memorize alot...cannot absorb already...sigh...any takers to help me pls contact me...and this may sound like bribery but, yea...lunch on me if i get an A1...one for both prelim and o's...aaaah...i need help...
well...enough of my rambling...like i said...i'm tired...however, i wonder how
you did...WAN...yep...i pray and pray that you did well...and that you're happy...if you're not...i won't be either...
tears.of.joy.and.sorrow
8/12/2004 11:54:00 ap.