I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, elokuuta 14, 2004
school
feel drained...came to sch early in the mornin...ferz had chem prac...QA today involved chemicals with preee-tay colours...my my...pinkies and purpelishes...and aqua and violet...so nice...wheee~...no titration though...had to do measuring of the temperature of the exothermic reaction...that was easy...aft that had a break awhile...went to see my clarinets...then went to get the key...saw my mon cher frere le cauchemar...still never say anything to me...i wish you had said something...sigh...not even a smile...*tears*...i really am missing your smile...and you talking to me...really, its not been the same...talk to me...
aft that had bio...mann was it draggy...it made my brains into soup...and it made me restless...then waited for mr collin for physics...had a test...i think i screwed it up...darn it...oh well...then i went home...didn't catch sight of mon cher anywhere...
no one was at home...just stayed at home...rested awhile...watched the Olympics...Athens...nearly dozed off bcos was very tired...but well, i'm afraid of sleeping since last nite...le cauchemar...*shudders*...nothing to say abt that...i hope that mon cher frere knows...
saw the band do drillz...eric kor says they are lazy but can make it...i hope its the case...really want them to get it into their heads...discipline...its the key...eric's a capable leader...no doubt he'll be able to do a gd job...just hope everyone cooperates with him...to my dearie veli : thank you soooo much for helping out...love you loadies...
am tired now...want to sleep, but...*whispers*...shant tell, no i won't...
every.night.i pray.
8/14/2004 11:24:00 ap.