I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, elokuuta 18, 2004
pain
another dreary day...what happened last night...really really pissed me off...like i said...where i am now...in the position that i am in...i cannot do anything...really...whoever the conflict is with, i lose...and if i don't argue...then i also lose...so whatever i do i'm still lose...sickening
school...came to school looking very pissed...even fit noticed...then we had lessons...by the time we had Geog i was seriously very very pissed...felt like shooting on sight...so i just kept quiet the entire recess time...
mon cher huda...je m'ennuie de vous tellement... svp m'appelle bientôt
sheena finally came back to school...thats a good thing
i have a head ache now...thats bad
i'm still pissed...thats bad
i hardly can remember anything for music and my prelims are next week...thats bad
i'm currently listening to the songs that my kor jacob sent me...real nice...but they don't cheer me up at all...jacob...i miss you...sigh...i don't know why either...
i just found out that my two names, marlina and sarah have two meanings...marlina means bitterness...sarah has two different meanings : importance and princess...i have no comments on this one...for the record, i hate my name...bcos it was chosen by
that person...i have been trained from young to respond to that name...so my brain is used to it and i turn when someone calls the name...but since i have to stick with the name i prefer sarah to marlina...it sounds nicer...i don't know why either...
my dear brothere...mon cher frere...is there anyway you can contact me? i wish you would...seramthgin eno...please do
updates later
8/18/2004 10:58:00 ap.