I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, elokuuta 09, 2004
NDP observance
oh well...went to sch early this morning...my mother thought i was crazy heading down to school on national day...so i went there in uniform since i was too lazy to wear my band u...look aft my dearie band...help set up the chairs...stuff like that lah...masri was there...too bad chew din drop by...hmm...i think perhaps the band might not have liked that, but i wouldve...chilled awhile with huda and nadiah and daniel...a-sum came later...then saw liyana...been long time gerl! also saw many2 beloved2 ppl...met my junior frm EPPS, eric...strangely he remembers me though i have long hair now...thinking of cutting it...comments ppl? so well, chilled with him and his fren awhile...
parade...was spectacular to me today...though i think they chose the wrong time and the sun was shining directly on the contingents...i don't wonder why some ppl passed out...SJAB did a good job in caring for all of them too...the most frightening case would have to be the guy frm the back of the SJAB contingent...he literally fell backwards and passed out...meaning, *kaboom*...thank God he's skinny looking...who knows if he wasn't it'd be Hiroshima scale...*shudders*...couple of others...in the end i hope everyone came out safe and sound...PDS rocked today...somehow felt very very proud...also for NPCC creative drill...they were super cute...oooh, and i loved the cheerleading...cartwheels! i never did that...when i was briefly in cheerleading, though...i was in the bottom of the pyramid *bleah*...but it was fun...quit though, what a pity...
liyana's lil sis is such a cutie!!! omg omg...seriously mann...she's this lil chubby girl with long curly locks...and she wanted me to angkat her so she could see everything...and she call me "kakak"...cutie!! and she even gave me a peck on the cheek...omg omg...cute!okok, i'm rambling abt lil kiddos...but she's really really cute...really...love cuties...*awww*
so...well...going to concert again...whee...in september...SP band as well as the school band...crestwinds dun let me down! btw, Jon didn't turn up today...what else...*argh*...my section needs a good scolding...and they're going to get one as soon as i am free for the next practice...slackers...*grrr*...so well...ppl who wanna go...ask me so we can go together ya?
you caught my eye...i guess thats what you wanted to do all along? well you did...for now...but my eyes aren't fixed on you...unless you try somethin weird to keep it on you...dun try...pls dun try...you're scaring me...really...but thank gdness i didn't really see you today....thank gdness...
came home and slept...watched the parade...uber coolness...SNYO performed but i didn't manage to catch sight of nutcase chester...my sis managed to see momo and sandeep and jas though...haha...too bad i was out that time at drive 6...*darn*...went to hunt everywhere for my mother's french loaves *rolls eyes*...but well...all out...too bad for mum...
when's my oven going to be fixed? *groans*
oh Spore Idol is hilarious...not to mention, managed to get a look at the cute guys *sighs*...eh eh...dun jealous ar you...yes you my MRS/WAN...i just looked ok...LOOKED...nothing more involved...and no, kor...i didn't flood the place...you meanie always remind me to not drool...get this : I DON'T...but nvm, is part and parcel being your sis, then i'll take it...teasing i mean...dun over do it though...there are limits...missing you loadies...*muacks*
happy national day to all my sporean friends...now its time to wait for my itsenaisyys paiva...finn independance day which is in December...long way to go...
caught.my.eye.leave.me.alone.
8/09/2004 01:48:00 ip.