I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, elokuuta 11, 2004
i love you
sheesh...whoever "dead" is...you're a coward...a huge one...i mean, you wanna say i hurt you? fine. tell me face to face...instead you resort to posting such a stupid and cowardly comment on my blog...so yea. go ahead...i'll nv know who you are...i'll nv stop "hurting" you like you claim bcos i dunno who you are...coward...*sheesh*
aft i got that out i feel much better...sigh...had oral today...means that well..i dunno if its a good sign that the examiners laughed at what i said...perhaps it was the way i said it? i dunno...i didn't stumble on the passage...thats good...i hope i didn't leave anything out on the pic...and the conversation...they asked abt a humourous show...for some funny reason, the first thought that came to my head was the spore idol thingie and the lemon tree guy...oh ya...the "careless whisper" was a great one...didn't mention that though...
so i came out pretty much smiling...settled the scores fer o level music practical...aaaah! i'm afraid...then i went home...saw dson under the block...he aint mad at me...well, we had a gd laugh over the "i-played-you-you-played-me" thing...gd fer him that he's happy...my kor's kor is happy, means my kor is happy...which means i am happy...yay...
erm...to mr " "...i'm still sorta...well...waiting? i dunno how to explain but i am...and i dun know how to tell you but...yea... ....loadsa blanks here...fill them in yourself...you know who you are...loving you loadies
MRS/WAN...i miss you...and MR you even more...really
hmm...so my day? pretty ok i guess...besides that sinking feeling...and the waiting...more waiting for me i guess...until you realise
oh yes...I WANT MY OVEN FIXED!! wanto bake fer jacob...make my kor happy...and let him taste me cookies..."cookie monster"...hehe...as well as fer eric...
final note : to "dead" you either tell me in person or you just leave my blog be...in other words, if you're too cowardly, just fuck off...thank you
8/11/2004 02:25:00 ip.