I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, elokuuta 10, 2004
hear me cry
ahhh...this hurts a teeny weeny bit too much..."shoot me!"...to know and still not be sure...to see you hurt and not be able to help...to wish to cry everytime things are not well with you...but i can't show it...oh no...i can't...you know why...sigh, i can't talk abt that we agreed...this goes out to my "
nightmare abang"...you know who you are...dun deny it...we need to work things out...and talk sometime soon...i hope we do...meanwhile, take care...loving you loadies...
i wish i wish...i wish my oven is repaired!! i want to bake...faster repair my oven!!!
homework is minimal...wonder how come...and i've study log to fill up...sigh...
school tml...like i mentioned, have eng oral as well...yipee...can get it OVER and done with...no more oral for me...yeahyeahyeah...i'm nuts...
someone told me something that day although i told him i didn't want to hear it...i understand that you wanted to boost my morale...make me happy? oh well...you certainly delighted in seeing my face turn strawberry red aye *blush-blush*...oh no...my face feels hot...and you! stop giggling...you giggling monkey you ...grrr...*blush*...so you see...it made you happy and not me...no more compliments...promise?
oh ya...managed to find out how to post my pics...whee~ btu i aint gonna do that yet...nope...hehe...but watch out for it in coming posts...
i'm going nuts...better stop playing around or i won't sleep all night...will be uber hyper...sigh...
never.be.replaced.
8/10/2004 10:29:00 ap.