I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
tiistaina, heinäkuuta 20, 2004
wishing.hoping.worrying.praying.
i'm worried...for
that person...i woke up several times last night...tears...silent prayers crossed my lips a couple of times...been restless, thinking of what that person told me last night...hoping...praying...wishing...worrying...still haven't heard anything of what happened...i just pray that everything went fine...if anything, i'll wait for you my friend...you've got me...
school...for the second day in this week, GLow and ZAG aren't here...so means free periods...what did i end up doing? worrying...more and more...
jani told me she dreamt abt
A...aiyoh...crazy things are happening...todays weather was kinda crazy...no warning, and suddenly : torrents of rain...it stopped just as abruptly and the sun went on shining...reminds me of a kid who pretends nothing just happens and happily puts on that innocent face to ask permission to go play...sigh...deceitful, thats what i call it...
last nite was sweet...aft a long month, we finally talked things out...wish to meet you soon too...for now, take care aytes? love you loads...
so a bittersweet nite...thats what i had...one where there were both smiles and tears...though i admit, more of the latter...if only, things hadn't turned out this way for my friend...if only...
7/20/2004 12:11:00 ip.