I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, heinäkuuta 03, 2004
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ok, today was listening for ml...so cool, was on ria, not warna...din screw up this time so it was fine...met abang on the way, hope it went well fer veli and him...heard frm the chi pupils that it could be done, therefore i think they should do fine...
yesterday was my 2.4...ran with the failures and a few like me including wonder woman sheena who have not run the test yet...passed as expected, just that the timing was horrific...have not trained in 2 months, so it was expected...wondering why sheena is a wonder woman? well, she has not trained for more than half a year, and she came in just aft me by half a minute or so...and she claims she aint in good shape? sigh, girl, you are in great shape...and you look fine too *wink wink*
saw eric's dog dj...yup, he's a cutie...went to meet my dearie veli at the bus stop with ranjani yesterday...met yingying there by chance...also saw the prcs ppl who were going home...and saw dj...its a yorkshire terrier (is that how its spelt?)...anyways, its cute when it aint near me...cus i'm 'fraid of dogs...and cats...so i headed over to whitesands to buy groceries for my mum...as per normal lah that one...
also councillor meeting yesterday...any idea why japs stopped using WITS? duh, bcos it doesn't work...but its difficult for myself now...have that responsibility to shoulder...that whole campaign...and that means, i have to convince myself that it works so that i can't convince my council that it works...so that it isn't a flop...sigh...managed to make dearie abang go...*grins*...that one, aiyoh...what can i say hmmm? told me he's a good actor...hallo?! i told you you could be a good actor, had the looks and voice...and what you told me? you said NOOO...yaya...now tell me differently...*grrr*...took me so long to get him to come...and whats more, he knew i was paranoid abt ppl cabut-ing and so he teased me all the way up that he was going to cabut as well...rilek adik, rilek adik...must forgive abang...rilek dik....*clenches fist*...sigh...
seems like an ok week...youth day is up next...my back probs are acting up again...now keeping the pain killers and the fastum in my bag...for sch purposes...finally...*smiles sweetly at abang*...you know what i mean...
like i said...SEEMS like an ok week...had bad encounters...cried a couple of times...and no one knew...thats good...but someone nearly blew my cover...thats bad...thats why it SEEMS like a good week and is not REALLY a good week...sigh...
btw, my element is ice...dunno why...everything leads back to the same time...winter...when i was born...perhaps its this snow globe...shall keep this to myself for now...maybe for ever...but lets see where i get...
7/03/2004 02:22:00 ip.