I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, heinäkuuta 29, 2004
spastic monkey business
*growls* here on official spastic monkey business...
well...obviously someone read my blog abt calling me by name...and also has the notion that that person is the spastic monkey...i shall refer to you as B...ok B...here's the thing...you AREN'T the figging spastic monkey...geddit? *rolls eyes* now, what you did by calling me by name and pretending that you didn't is childish...but then again, thats expected from someone like you...now...though its the spastic monkey that i love to hate and NOT you...it doesn't mean that i don't dislike you...number one, we so cannot be friends...face it, we're like ice cream and fish sticks...no way we will EVER be friends...number 2, i'm a very difficult person to convince, so yea...dun try...unless you really think you're that good...number 3, i dunno what misconceptions you might have abt me but i certainly do not appreciate the fact that you interrupted my conversation with someone today...but i let you go cos i was being nice, i won't be nice again...so to sum it all up, i go my way, you go yours...simply put, leave me alone, dun talk to me, dun call my name, dun try to be my friend, nor try to convince me that you're nice...kapeesh?
so, the spastic monkey did not disturb me today, neither did i see him at all...which is the MOST HEAVENLY thing thats ever happened...however, B kinda made things a bit more complicated...
since NH didn't come today i accompanied someone for recess and aft sch...sorry to jani if it seemed i was avoiding you...i was not...had test...a math lecture...mock-ery exam...gdnss knows what else...but was uber sleepy...fell asleep on the sofa in my sch skirt and adidas tee...stupid me...but i managed to drag myself off it and get dressed and neat to sch...BAD HAIR DAY...sheesh
tml is the parade and prize giving rehearsal...i'm stuck in the middle...wanna take care of my dearies in band...but also have to attend that lame-o rehearsal...oh please...i happen to know how to walk...so yea, i dun think i need to rehearse how to walk up and down a stage...
sleepy...so darn sleepy...nearly fell asleep in the comfy air conditioned room durin malay...oh ya dots. : thanks fer telling me who you are...and no, you didn't hurt me..you didn't hit hard enough =p...but i'm sure the beating/slapping i gave you yesterday left my palm prints on your arm...nice aye? maybe i should give you another such tattoo?
i am going to not respond to anyone but teachers who call me "marlina"...bcos that spastic monkey made it sound so awful and tarnished it when he called my name on wednesday...so calling all ppl...you know my pet names...yep...call me by them, and not that "dirtied" name...ugh...*gives disgusted face*...and yes KE...your old name fer me "banana" i fine...oh yes, i must thank you fer hitting mr dots. for me...he stole you frm me!! hey, if i'm wife number one...and he CLAIMS to be wife number 3 then who is number 2 aye??? *jealous* nvm you hit him , i forgive you *wink-wink*
missing someone...darn it...can't help but think abt the distance...it aint gonna stop us...but well...its kinda different frm before you know...sigh...i sitl have my lil pet pet in my pocketses...
gollum...guess who i am?
my precioussss...*hisses* *laughs hysterically*
you got it...i'm insane...yipeee...
lil.pet.pet
7/29/2004 09:45:00 ap.