I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, heinäkuuta 19, 2004
sigh...lonely...very
so now...got to sch...everytime looked at
A cringed...thought abt that dream...its cringe worthy...but its also kinda hilarious...aiyoh...cannot sleep already...not just bcos of that dream...but also bcos of
that question...aiyoyo...
sch today was ok i guess...had ml free so i kinda slacked with mas in the music rm...courtesy to dearie mrs chua...played the piano awhile...its nice to play a proper one once in a while...just that i forgot everything since i've been practising my clarinet more...argh...darn darn...had ch free as well...slacked in sch also with oke and the other councillors...oh we have this great song now...its goes like this
nevermind, nevermind, nevermind...(wags finger)
cute...really cute if you watch...finally settled the duty list for this week...and gave out all the campaign files as well...and that
nevermind song...all thanks to mr oke...aiyoh...so funny...ranjani should have seen...we laughed till our sides ached...sigh...been a long time since i did that...
someone got me into a spot of embarrassment today when i helped out...reminded me...the day is nearing...*shudders*...i can't help but remember...thought i pused it all out of my head...i didn't...its still haunting me...
i'm lonely...in a crowd, but feel alone...listen to the words of others, but at the same time...listening to the words going over in my head...the thoughts that can't go away...the fear...the loneliness...the sadness...i wish i could laugh and forget everything...thats ever happened...angry with myself...darn it...
lonely.confusion.sleeplessnites.
7/19/2004 12:08:00 ip.