I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, heinäkuuta 10, 2004
no one sees this hooray...i'm suicidal now
not going to delete the hate post...but if anyone in sch thinks it applies to them, it doesn't...just to set the record straight
went to MEP concert yesterday...was superb...definitely the best performance i've seen so far...finally REALLY understand mr chew's sound concept...i guess he's finally got a supporter from crestwinds...me...
so anyways, the concert featured a couple of performers...particularly admired those pianists who got their diplomas at 12 or something like that...their hands move so quickly...gosh...then the orchestra was real nice...Copland's "Hoe Down" was a real pleasing performance...couldn't help smiling as i watched them tune up, and the anxiousness of those performing...reminds me of my own experiences on stage...they've ended for sec sch, but i wish to see many more to come...
went with Zoe...quite paiseh, saw so many prcs ppl on the way...and the way i was dressed *shrugs*...nvm abt that...saw liwei and steph, they passed directly infront of me and didn't see me...i guess that'll tell you enough about my clothes aye...
these few days have been rough...tired out...and other stuff i shant care to mention...i cut myself today...happened in the band room...shan't explain, but hazirah looked panicky...sigh...
oh, ya...went to see the band...they are getting better...but not really that good...i'm glad to see that the sec 1s are now understanding the meaning of "bell tone"...euphos are the best in the brass section in my opinion...tubas need to gel abit more, they need that sort of "pizzicato" sound...like that of the double bass in orchestras...trombones are coming up fine, however, the seconds ought to be more aggressive, and the firsts can afford to be much louder...make a stand mann...horn...i dunno what to say abt them, but they lack this certain element...shant mention it here...but might tell mariam later...they lack exactly what sudiani possessed before...oh, and daphne's being hard core...rock on man girl! the rest of her section need to support her however...maybe can hear more of some lyrical sounds if you guys push...oh, and the winds...my section has a serious shortage of reeds...the trills are getting better...particularly fateen...love her to bits...firsts need to back her up, seconds need to play it out...saxes ought to be much louder, particularly the tenors...and flutes are doing fine...love their articulation...
still aft that whole para dedicated to the diff sections...the band still lacks something...its frustrating for me to watch them be like that...one moment be so great and the next sink down in the deeps...seriously, i believe they are good enough to get a gold next year...IF they work for it...
sigh...other than band and the chem test today, i've nothing to say...just too hurt right now
7/10/2004 12:16:00 ip.