I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, heinäkuuta 17, 2004
the meaning of a smile
i've lost the meaning of a smile....of that simple hello...sigh
went for the TP convention today...went with mas and jani...hilarious...managed to jinx jani for a full 1 and a half hours...so anyways, aft my experience at numerous conventions, i must say this one was average...the history of pi was good...the study tips entertaining...the lecturers were not only articulate but were good at what they did, seriously...then the ultimate disaster : question and answer session...reason being that some ppl frm SOME schools were being immature and rude...REALLY rude...asked STUPID and IRRELEVANT questions...pls, the lecturers may not be your teachers, and you aren't obligated to treat them in that way...but pls acknowedge the fact that they are your elders, and also very very knowledgable...they even have the decency to handle some of the crap you present, like the most trivial questions...so give them some respect...i was horrified and disgusted at the questions and they way the students tried to "kill" the lecturers...unless you are better than them, and have acheived more than them in life...go ahead, try to make them look small and be egoistical...but since i think that the students who asked those questions are far frm being better then the lecturers, then i think they should just shut the f**k up...its RUDE...thank gdness the prcs students had sense...and also, congrats to the emcee for handling that situation well...really well...gd for you
got home...went to slp for awhile...then went out with eric kor later in the evening...poor boy...was intending to go to library since early this week...if i'm not mistaken...since last week as well...as sson as he reached, the library had closed...went to go get some stuff...as usual, talked some...sigh...things are getting to me...i feel what you feel kor...upset...its just, everything...now back at home waiting for him to come online like he said...but that boy is prolly too engrossed in scaring himself with ju-on...*giggles*...its funny to think of him having a massive heart attack with his bro watching it...but then again, thats the him that i know...its sad to see...nvm...miss my kor that i know so much...been ages since i've seen him like this...really
this fuss abt blogging...its something that was small and blown up to massive proportions...its stupid to tell someone to watch what they say in a blog...it is a blog for gdness sake...our personal space...our personal reflections...key word : personal...therefore, what we say is our personal opinion...not yours to dictate...like i told hui ping...if you dun like what you see...get the f**k lost...yes, some ppl may abuse their blogs to spread rumours...those ppl are malicious...the important thing is to take everything in a blog with a pinch of salt...they are personal opinions...some may be biased...so, just keep quiet abt what you read alright...if you have so many comments...like i said f**k off...really...its pissing me off...
i hope oke gets better...worried to see him like that...aiyoyo boy...dun bcome like me can already liao...
weird questions coming my way...weird dreams...weird everything....
look.what.you've.done
7/17/2004 03:11:00 ip.