I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, toukokuuta 28, 2004
w i l l f u l h e a r t
abg finally came to school today...hmm, sad i guess? cracking my brain trying to cheer him...i can't do much...bcos i know how it feels like to say goodbye...esp when its someone close...hurts very very much
i was pretty upset myself aft last nite...i guess it showed lah...i let my mask down today...so a bestest pal saw and asked me what the problem was...i'm thankful that he walked over...was getting freaked out by this thing...and i noticed the stares...so yea, felt safe arnd him...and thank you for venting your own problems also...and asking for advice...it was really really touching that you did...to know you trust me...
been awfully agitated the whole day...explains the hyperness...bcos i feel very upset...also like my abg...sian...master feeling the same, i can tell...shoots...the only thing that made me smile was the kekanda and adinda thingie...mina jiwang lah...giler ah...maafkan saya...
baking...planned to this weekend...like no mood already...thinking of that person of mine...and the song reason is playing itself over and over in my head...
waiting for things to pass...to unshatter...maybe i'll be able to do something then...i dunno...i just feel really crummy right now...almost to the point of being funny...but not just yet...a tad more will push me over the edge...
r a i n p o u r i n g o n m y s o u l
5/28/2004 09:35:00 ap.