I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, toukokuuta 31, 2004
n o r e g r e t s b u t 1
mt paper for o levels...lemme see...as usual, a bad day...woke up late...then also went to school and realised i brought nothing to revise with me...passed my dearest bear to a person who i thought needed it more...passed master his ezlink again...and then i realised, oh dang, i'm the first malay candidate in the school...so yea, i was pissed...then i did the first paper, was all set out to do a jiwang narrative...guess what, no jiwang story to write...so i wrote the closest to it...then came paper 2...thought it was ok...when i came home my mum picked out sooo many mistakes i'm like really disheartened right now...fed up...
so yea, i finished that...just awaiting the results now lah...so yea, aft that helped cook...then went to movie with my kid bro bcos he needed someone to accompany him...and he was paying, so yea...shrek 2...not bad, was humourous...we smuggled the drinks in...i was like huddling in a windbreaker which did no help...but well, it was okay...went to toilet a couple of times...and got stuck at the mrt station bcos i din realise i had 2 ezlink cards in my wallet...dang...
i just realise i have no regrets...but one...just this one regret...its living...my regret is that i lived past my childhood...that i didn't die at birth...stupid stupid me...why did i...ppl have never told me to get a life...but when one does, i'll say that i have one, and i don't like it at all...any ppl out there who'd like it...
this school is so fing cruel...i mean, they claim they are being kind by giving us this "special package"...that we have to pay for, mind you...and they also claim they are being kind by giving us lessons the day aft mt o levels...utter crap man...more like cruel kindness...yea, there goes me fave oxymoron...btw i discoverd a new one recently...serious fun...cool yea...
i wish to continue my story but i'm really really not in the mood to write right now...i'll just spoil it...wish to talk to someone instead...going funny...yes funny...sorry abg, you told me to cheer up...but you also know whats goin on...and so i can't cheer up...it aint warm...just cold...
f r o z e n t e a r s o n m y c o l d c h e e k s
5/31/2004 12:13:00 ip.