I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, toukokuuta 29, 2004
a n g u i s h
a miracle occured i guess...my e math results were F9 in CA...jumped to a C6 in the mid yr results...bcos of the pye paper of course...that stupid converstaion btw my mum and m.et was ridiculous...yea, as if you support me to drop A math...you clearly said no the last time i suggested...and when i got home, my dad clearly said i MUST go to JC...yea...m-u-s-t...so even if i want to go fer mass com...no...i can't...stupid...
so yea, i was upset, had a bad day aft all...woke up late...heard that song again...then i got to sch in like 15 mins...includes bathing and dressing and the journey to sch also...fast right...
went to buy cookie materials...met eric and megan there...talked some as per normal...and i saw something that must have been the greatest thing of the day...that made my day much brighter...i saw my abang...and he was studying chinese...so i am really really satisfied this time...deal going as planned...
broken record...make me cry...
her eyes glistened as she looked out towards the sea.her scarf slipped off her shoulders, blown by the soft sea breeze. she colsed her eys a moment, and let the breeze softly tease her hair back, away from her face. she thought of how much a failure she was, as a mother, as a wife, and a child. the one who was supposed to be the light of her life, her child, caused her husband to hurt her. it was immense torture, living in the same house as someone who had a responsibility over you, and also loathed having that responsibility. she felt like a burden.
ok, i dunno why i wrote this...it came to just now as i walked home...or rather, sprinted home...lets see if there is a continuation in the days to come...
m y b e s t i s n e v e r g o o d e n o u g h
5/29/2004 01:30:00 ip.