I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, toukokuuta 26, 2004
...life...
got this really cool and interesting quote today...went like this
"don't take life seriously because you never come out of it alive"
don't treasure life...exactly my point...since you are going to die in the end anyways...whats the pt of going through with it...why make yourself suffer? why not, just accelerate the process...and get the dying part over and done with...then no need to think and care so much...i know its like i'm being funny...trust me...i'm not...i'm just thinking...no plots ar...being true to abangism...
got A1 fer english...decided to reconsider thinking abt majoring for english...its really interesting...i mean, i love writing and all and thats why i started this blog...but music has played such a huge role in my life that i can't bear thinking abt parting from it...and english, its been something that i really love as well...so i'm now wondering is there any career where i can indulge in my love for both english and music...
i fell ill...stupid time to do so..its like 5 days to the major exam...another week of lessons...then the sc practical...where i will suffer giraffe neck syndrome...then aft that, hopefully a rest...then back to school...and then more agony...want to get that stupid o's over and done with and then good riddance to 'ol pearre seeas...thank goodness...and aft that lets see what happens...might end up funny again...
been wayang-ing abit you know for some people's good...then also been like shouting lots bcos of being extremely annoyed...argh...then this stupid xtra 2 hrs in the aftnoons...i skipped a class today bcos i was too tired to go...and sick as well...dieded when i came home...still like...very tired...seems like everyone is the same...
its been 2 days now since we last like had any contact...then it was like goodbye...whats up...nv said goodbye before...i want to find out...its killing me seriously...and also these bad dreams that i've been having recently...sleep is not peaceful...
i want to bang my head against the wall...but as abangism said yesterday...breach of contract...so i can't...darn...
i need to talk to someone, bad...but i guess no one is around again...never for me...
5/26/2004 01:20:00 ip.