I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
sunnuntai, maaliskuuta 14, 2004
Suddenly Single
it hurts, it really hurts...single...my sun won't shine on me anymore...yes, it hurts bad...
i just woke up from my nap...the nap that i was ordered to take...and i didn't feel any better...
i haven't learnt my lesson...someone kissed me last night...Melissa...but it reminded me of that incident...oh no...it didn't comfort me...
okay...i'm really rambling on to distract myself...from doing certain things...so i shall tell this story...
last night, i came home wif Sally, N, Huda and Fadzie on the train...Fadzie dropped first at Tamp,then Sally, N, Huda and myself dropped at PR...so Sally and N took 359 and me and Huda took 17 home...then i dropped Huda off at her block there...and walked home alone...so get this...i was walking to my block just about to enter the void deck, and i saw this cleaner in a blue shirt sweeping the floor,coming out of the block...he was looking down, i didn't see his face, so i thought that it was dangerous and i picked up the pace...he didn't follow and i thought nothing of it when i entered the lift...but i did see that he was in the blue shirt, and that his skin colour was pretty dark...so well...i didn't think there was anything wrong...
then today, my mother was commenting that there are many ppl arnd that hr...it was arnd 11 plus or midnite...then i said no, except for the cleaner sweeping the floor...and she was like...where got cleaner that hour, they all yesterday finish half day balik already
...then i was like...who else could that be...and she asked me what happened exactly...and concluded that i was REALLY lucky...because there are no cleaners at that time of hour...and i prolly saw a spirit...gosh...i din even know i did...creepy right...
okay i feel better now...just a tad bit freaked out...oh my...i can't believe i saw a spririt and i didn't even bother...if thats the case...how many of the ppl i saw last night were real?
i saw a boy skateboarding...at the station, i saw some guy walking behind me...a man sitting alone at the bus stop...i saw another old man walking under huda's block...and i saw a guy sitting at the bench at the bball court...really...were they ALL real...or was i seeing other things...my...i don't even know...
3/14/2004 01:36:00 ip.