I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
sunnuntai, maaliskuuta 21, 2004
Moody
left early this mornin to see evan play at takashimaya...haha...him and the raiders...well, i wanted to take the mrt and make it for the ferz match...but as usual, my mother insisted we take the bus...and not only that we took SOO long to get out of the house...so well...lets just say i was pissed off...bcos the bus took soo freaking long...and i ended up arriving like half and hour late...geez
so we went separate ways...was kinda in a bad mood...and then i saw evan...yea...its been a long time so it was cool...then watched him and eric play and stuff...was there for moral support...was so funny...i was like one of the tiny grp of supporters they had...so i felt kinda left out...but well...we talked and stuff...aft a long while...abt that guy....yesh...THAT guy...so irritating...and he sorta cheered me up a little...thank you, friend...i'll be there when you need me too...
headed home cus they were staying until like 6...and i wanted to go also, give them their time alone to discuss what happened...so i took the MRT back...only to find it was goin to rain...and i din have the house keys cus isi just changed the locks yesterday...not to mention isi wasn't back frm cycling and also my mum was not home...so i went to join them at Tamp...they were eating lar there...
mann..i wished isi had come to watch...he's be interested cus he plays bandy...ice bandy as well...so it was kindofa waste...wth...he can always play himself...there were lots of Suomalaiset there...and raiders like played against a grp of them...yea...coolness...so entertaining...Suomi sooo rawks...
yea...still hurts...and the wound hasn't healed...dang...thanks fer the advice evan....appreciate it lots..hugz...
missing you so bad...cos you left me...and it hurt...like a star leaving the sky...
3/21/2004 10:14:00 ap.