I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, maaliskuuta 03, 2004
haiyor...stomach pain...eat biscuit in school...for a friend..
that reminds me how angry i am at you right now...because its pretty obvious something is on your mind but you refuseto tell me...which means you are not keeping your part of the deal...so if you don't i won't keep my part either...
well...o level music...din make my day more bearable...because no 1, i saw A in the canteen early in the morning...2, mr singh scolded wai kit...3, my filing is not complete and i have tonnes of corrections to do...4, some one is not keeping his part of the bargain...5, some one actually guessed who that person is...after like, half a year...
thats what bugs me the most i guess...no one guessed...not for half a year...and i just talked to him for half a minute today...and she guessed who he was on the spot...argh...why, why din we keep it more quiet...nvm..i trust her that she won't broadcast our secret to the whole wide world...yup...so we are safe...
i have a head ache...i have a back ache...my muscles ache...my heart aches...alot, alot, alot...my heart really aches...a sharp pain...i want to relieve myself like i always do...but i made a promise...and i keep promises that i make...not that ppl force me to make...
secrets...it was so perfect...it ain't perfect anymore...
3/03/2004 10:20:00 ap.