I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, maaliskuuta 19, 2004
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Band prac today...so cool...Mr Nonami-san came down today...it was real swell...we learned abt tonguing...and it was real diff frm Mr Masri and Mr Chew...we weren't expected to be louder than we could manage...and we ended up sounding really relaxed and nice...not lazy...but relaxed...coolness...
mann...i still can't sleep...and i want to so bad...but i can't...and i can't figure out why...sure, i try not to think before bed...and i don't fear having THAT dream...usually, no matter how weird the dreams are....i just let them come...but now i can't even sleep...gosh...this bites...
had a talk wif the notti "evan" today...yea...was kinda worried after the huge explosion....nono, not referring to the egg...but the other, more recent explosion...the explosion within...and guess what...he's gonna get his own song...well...he wrote the lyrics and i'm composing a melody for it...just see how it turns out...exploration...soul searching...yes..sounds nice...anyways, looking forward to seeing him this sunday...goin down to takashimaya to see him play...and give a huge hug...heheez...it was a deal...and i mean to stick to it...
lonesome..the pain's subsided...but no, it aint gone...and though the bleeding's stopped...there's a scab....and in time...a scar...lets see if its a small or big one...
well, master eric...you should be proud of me today...i managed to overcome the fourth rung...and now working on reaching the sixth...yea...i dun suppose you read this but...thank you...for your advice...i'l certainly try...like i always try...even when someone used to tell me to try before...nono, not the sunshine...just someone else...
i'm goin for an audition...trying to get chosen for a music camp in states sometime in June...coolness...3 sharps and 3 flats...not so bad...i learnt 5 sharps and 5 flats for ABRSM...and also a set piece...sight reading...the works...i don't think it will be too bad...just the competition will be tough...ppl frm SNYO also there, so i got TOUGH competition...tough competition=hard work, more sweat, more toil, more effort, and push to the limit...thats how i'll have to work...other than that, its a piece of cake...
i'm mastering the art of sarcasm...yea...how cool...and i criticised myself today...ah...the usual ar...
did the "funny" thing last nite...i feel relieved...and there was more than usual...i'll be approaching my goal soon...well...its not my prob...climbing ladder or not, i didn't sign any agreement this time...so heck...i'll do what i want...
REJOICING...making the ceiling touch my ladder...no...more like jumping to reach the ceiling...
3/19/2004 01:40:00 ip.