I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
maanantaina, helmikuuta 09, 2004
went to school like and ah ma...limping all the way...my leg hurt like crazy, but i managed, i guess...well i went round checkin and stuff...like normal...then went to give out some stuff...crazy climb all the way up to the 4th storey...
so we had classes...recess we had to do some checking, and also to make some ppl buck up...and then we went back to class...
aft school met mr singh abt the SOP...then went up to get my bag, we had no remedial...next thing i know farhan ask me to run down to get stretcher...and i run down like old ah ma again...sheena sprained her ankle...haiyor...
then we went to break and then councillor room...had some fun there...then we had a meeting...i sat in front lar...and then we saw some presentation for the investiture...master Alvin kept disturbing me...so irritating...i already say i scared, then he still look and look..so i cry lar...then aft that he ask me who is A...and he actually guessed it...then threaten to go tell A...so i scared and really, really started crying...then he finally got the pic...so i bad mood lar...then go home worse...see A doin PDS...so i cry some more...and then go home...my mummy like...wad you crying for...i really scared..
sayang...i din dream of you last nite...it was that nightmare again..pls walk me home, i can't take this anymore...i actually heard footsteps behind me as i went home...pls...dun torment me anymore...sayang...help...
paranoia
2/09/2004 10:19:00 ap.