I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
torstaina, helmikuuta 05, 2004
this is getting reaally freaky...i dreamt of person A...AGAIN...and he was stalking me in my dream...AGAIN....and i woke up in cold sweat...AGAIN....wads the deal with these dreamz...i know i'm afraid of him...but surely not when he is far away...and does not know where i live...and it shouldn't carry on into my dreamz ritez...or is it....does he know where i live...is he really far away...questions, questions...running thru my head...i had dreams that were premonitions before...but they never repeated themselves like in this case...and never have i dreamt abt one particular person over and over...all i can say on my part is that i dunno what is goin on...and its makin me press the panic button even if i see him frm a distance...and i want to run away...every single time...why...not just abt the dream...but why am i afraid of the person...
today i did NOT see person A come to school...and then i rejoiced....but my heart fell when i was doin rounds n i saw the fella emerge frm the HDB block...goodness...so i walk supersuper fast to get away...ni did get away woohoo!!
anyway, i saw sayang today...and i know you are taller then me...i jsut can't believe it...gosh...so well we had this checkin thingie goin abt...and then i had class...and then we had tests...SS and also Physics CT...err...then we had our maths peer tutoring...had no tutorial wif Eric...but then i have a new student to handle fer English which brings my total up to 5...then i have tutorial wif Yong Ying and Ranjani tml...
Jae was sick todae...wif head ache...it scares me to see my frens like this really...Jae got head ache and Ranjani got her asthma...i accompanied Jae down and got her excuse slip signed...and she went home and then HOPEFULLY to the doc's....haiyor...
sayang...you were really sweet to me today....you answered me in the canteen really sweetly...and you teased me again....and u did NOT mess up my hair...thanks sayang...love your teasing you attention seeking cutie...
we had a meeting today....abt minutes....i hate minutes...though i don't do them so often...i pity poor OKE...do so many...so i spent the time in the councillors room on the sofa..lying down...and listening to music instead of everythin else...nottinotti...but i did listen to most of what he said bcos he repeated so yea...i guess i not so notti aft all...
i have to set a diagnostic test for my students now...ciao
RED ALERT...PANIC BUTTON...WARNING...DANGER
2/05/2004 09:19:00 ap.