I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, helmikuuta 06, 2004
i finally had a nite WITHOUT dreams of person A...wad a relief...came to school...then i talked to huda and ainin fer awhile...i went to look at the councillors to see if they were on duty...and so far so good never see that fella...then we had our flag raising...and we went to do our checkin on the ppl at the stairs but they were not there...gosh...
so went fer class...sayang, when you passed you looked so bad mood...lighten up ya...so we went fer PE and i was counter fer Pillai...and then we went back to class and had this huge argument wif mr tan...as a class lar...well...aft that recess...and i went to change...so sayang...u tease me again...u finally getting the hang of things rite...esp the hang of capturing my attention and my heart...ahakz...i feel so sorry fer you...yup, if i could, i'd run the entire 2.4 wif you...if not, be your counter...or at least, be there to cheer you on....i just wish...
well...went fer recess...thats when i saw A...Nooooo! cannot...he was gazing at me...that was bad...the ppl there kena scold wif master...the ppl whu not on duty of course lar when they supposed to...nvm...we'll get that sorted in time...then we went fer class again...and then ABRSM...and then we went fer meeting...masters were there, which reminds me that he owes me 20 push ups...fer not doing, failing to complete and also fer not handing in the assignments i set him...gosh...so they settle best class and then i went up fer bio...
only me and shabeena turned up, so mrs lim cancelled it...yea...darn...so i went up and settled the white board, where mdm kamisah wrote wif permanent red ink...golly...and then we took soo long cleaning it before it was cleared and even then, it was faint pinkish sortish colour...the i went down and had my eng lesson wif ranjani...she dieded...really...
sayang, if it weren't fer you...i dunno what i would do...esp since person A freaks me out so much...but you remind me that i can overcome my fear...thank you lots...muakz...ciao
2/06/2004 10:01:00 ap.