I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, tammikuuta 14, 2004
yesterdae was okay..the server was down...darn...
orang putih...that was what he called me...to start a conversation...kind of a FLIRT...aren't you...oh nvm...
had classes...and then went fer band...quite okay...sound change sooo rocks...and our layout looks very very cool...yup...like their teaching...mr masri was okay also...and he reminds me totally of mr chew...erkerker...so funny
See came up to me in the morn in theory class...wif a prob, that i dun relly like to handle...i thought that that conversation was OVER months ago...apparently not...so well...i don't call the shots, so i went up to my Boss aka mr sallehin...and he talked to Fadzly, and Hanafi...and I talked to Aisam...and we talked to Liwei...and later they talked to Hui Ping...so i hope something has been settled...
I totally do not like it when ppl bring that quitting incident up as if it was a bad thing...esp like Liwei did yesterdae...it was my choice...one that i do not regret...and i repeat again...i do take pleasure in conducting, but NOT with the band i'm currently with...i'm the WRONG conductor for this band...and thats that...
ended up wif a fever last nite...so i'm not at school todae...goin to the doc's again...darn...and probably get an MC again...gosh...i dunthink i can take this any longer...
i never made any mistake in my life...at least not one that i can't explain...or a mistake that i regret...because all of them make up my identity...my soul...and who i am is who i am....yesh Boss...believe it or not...
1/14/2004 12:45:00 ap.