I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
lauantaina, tammikuuta 24, 2004
i went visiting today...left the house like 1130 hrs...i had pretty much nothin to wear...so i threw on anythin i could...blouse, singlet and skirt...din look too bad besides my skirt being a tad too short...but i looked ok...tried having my shirt unvuttoned fer a change...and ended up looking veryvery diff...haha...my frens actually sed i looked too havoc to be myself...
anyway i went with ranjani...and we met oke and eileena at the bus stop...er house is quite nice...i kinda worried bout the dog but it was locked up...eventually we ended up fixing that screwed up com of hers...and boy, is it screwed up...crapz...
was quite ok...then i left wif oke to go search fer a new a drive fer that gal...sumthin's stuck inside i think...and it needs to be changed...but we couldn't find, so we went to TM to get a bdae pressie fer his mum...so small...and cost so much...but nvm, its the thought that counts...that also reminds me i need to go get a pressie fer that boss of mine...and my big boss osso...both bdae cumin up...so must lor...
i just came home...its been raining the whole day wif no signs of change in weather...and i osso need to do some hw...haiyor...how i hate that word...i dun wan to do...aww mann...
soo dark at home...i actually dreamt i played truant at skool last nite...and went shopping at the airport...and i dreamt i was with hwee ying...and all of a sudden met my mum in the shop...and then i was dragged back to school and punished...oh no...wat a bad dream...i was on the topic of dreams of school with oke in the bus...we saw joyce wong outside the mrt station...and this guy smiled at me...he looked so freakishly like jacob...and then i looked carefully and realised it could not be him...could it? oh my...if it was then i was so rude...i dun say hi...or at least smile back...gosh...even hairstyle same...oh my....
well...i found out he got sacked...oke told me...thats prob why he's never online anymore...i guess...wateva...can't be bothered anymore...gotta go cook...mummy sick lar...ciao
1/24/2004 10:13:00 ap.