I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
perjantaina, tammikuuta 02, 2004
first dae of skool...it was sooo fun...
started out wif my back gate duty (as per normal)... and boy, did i have fun....then we went to the parade sq....for spot check of course...turns out, we got the former 4/6 classrm...and its okay, i guess...
had recess...and more duty...and then we went back to class...oh gosh...our class is like a class away frm 4/9...so i sorta see wc...when i don't want to of course...
argh...that person din come to skool...so i din see him...but clarence say he is still in the skool...so tats a relief...
but i guess the best part was tat HE had psl duty...so i dun see him most of the dae...which is good...ya knoe...actually before i dreamt tat freaky dream of HIM...i actually din think of HIM or the incident throughout...not now...HE's still there...hauntin me...and now HE sits across the classroom....casting sideward glances tat really make me wonder...but not to worry...bdae's cumin up, so i will see wat HE says...or attempts to not say....or whether he doesn't say...wateva
got a place wif ranjani...so well...we went to the hall and listened to the P boast abt our skool...i din mind tat she boasted abt the sec 4s results...but abt the skool? oh puh-leeze...
and finally we had a bery looooong councillor meeting abt our WITS...and the new council...did some votin...but i put the wrong person's name there....nvm...i actually dun mind either one...
so i called liwei...and then was told chew is NOT cumin tml...bad news...gosh... and that he's doin well...i hope so...and i won't stand anyone dissin him animore...no way...he's my BOSS...so this is a warnin...DUN NOT EVER TRY TO GO ROUND DISSIN MY BOSS OR I'LL BEAT YOU UP!!!
and dun you try dissin eric or wanting, or even alvin...i will kill you...i will....
so aft this wonderful day....i spent a wonderful rest at home...esp since i'm sick...and need the rest...and to go to a specialist...sec 4s i miss you...yesh...i do...so have a good rest...which i'm goin to do now...ciao
1/02/2004 09:59:00 ap.