I have failed countless times to update this blog, and I have a feeling no one really reads anymore. However, since this was where I started writing it always feels most comforting to return to write short bit about my life here
I was browsing today this article where a number of individuals had submitted pictures or scans of their teenage diaries. I have hardly graduated out of teenhood myself; once a very interesting character told me that you don't truly stop being a teen until you've passed 25 years of age. Sometimes not even then. Yet I can't help but look at (the now hidden) entries that used to chronicle my life in secondary school and then in junior college. I was a very different person then, and yet, not so.
As I write this now, I am waiting for myself to fall asleep, for the memories in my head to die down so I may just tumble into a nice dreamless sleep.
Yet sleep evades me, as it naturally does when you need to wake mere hours later for the most important task of school. It feels so new all over again, because people just come and go and come back again.
But enough of my rambling, I should really try to at least close my eyes and lay down, and hope that eventually sleep will take me.
To all those people who left my life, I miss you. You know who you are
<3 M
marlz. daughter. sister. friend. cousin. girl. 1988. born to die.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 31, 2003
well...there are 2 daes left before school opens...and i'm lookin forward to being back at school...its my last year, and i've dreamt of this ever since i was in Pri 4...
i really didn't think i would reach here so soon...to think of it is pretty scary...but now, i have a bigger dream to chase...a bigger goal to look to...and sweeter results to reap...
anyway, yup, i have like 5 karangan to complete...and its kinda well...a rush to do my work now...my bio project is goin to be completed soon...and i know next year is goin to be kinda painful...esp separating from the band...i loved all four years there...although i had my ups and downs, and wanted to quit even...
gonna get the LOTR book fer my b'dae!! so fun...anyway, i lost 5 kg recently, so i'm pretty happy abt it...
watched Jamie's Kitchen this mornin...yea...i really feel fer the guy...he puts all his money and dedication into the thing...and well...i get kinda angry when i see the kids...like take advantage...its not very nice...i wonder wat if that had happened during the councillor camp...i would have been uming mad...luckily...it went well...
wonderin wat to expect...feelin abit appy...fer no reason...i guess thats just me...maybe i'm happy bcos i lost weight...haha...well...goin to vacuum me mummy room now...she's sick...gosh...ciao
12/31/2003 08:23:00 ap.
tiistaina, joulukuuta 30, 2003
ok...i had a great time at aunty kamsinah's yesterdae...i'm goin cyclin today...actually...yesterday...i went to do project wif qiq rite...and well...we did some research...endocrine pancreas...why didn't we do adrenal glands?...oh nvm...anyway...i get the editing job which i like so much...yea...they love it too...just copy paste everythin and then send to me...then i rephrase anythin...meaning..they just pick out relevant info...and i do the rest...love workin my magic...
i really love takin quizzes...been into it pretty much the whole day...yup...so fun..
had a chat wif aisam yesterdae...its a pity he quit o level music...bcos you know wat? he's takin o's wif us next yr...its actually not so bad...i dun understand why so many drop out last minute...i dun think tat it was very necessary...i'm copin well aren't i...
still wonderin abt the jc thingie...my mum doesn't want me to think abt it now...budden if i dun...then well...i've no goal to work towards...then i might as well dun work at all...goeals are everythin to me...so i need to think of it now...oh well nvm...i think i still got a fair bit to work towards still...
i'm delighted...i've got like less than 2 weeks to me b'dae...and me mum promises a bbq...where i get to prepare all the food...yumyum...i love doin tat...i really dun want to invite any friends...an me mum askin why...but i just dun fell like i should...i want to invite my realtives...only a few...maybe aunty faridah...aunty kamsinah....maybe uncle rahman...and uncle amat...yup...i guess tats it...i dun like big b'daes really...just a small indication tat you remembered is okie...haha...they plannin to sabo...lookin forward to tat...well...gtg cyclin...ciao
12/30/2003 08:12:00 ap.
maanantaina, joulukuuta 29, 2003
yea...another blog...infact...most ppl know me by crimsonjazz...so i dunno abt the readers who have been goin to the other blog...not much there either...so wat am i goin to do todae?...prob goin to do some project with qiqi and geng...then goin to aunty kamsinah's house...lookin forward to tat...gotta finish my karangs and ss hw...still have tat pile to settle...gosh...i wish there was band tis week...but nvm...i got my clarinet at home so its..okie i guess...wat bout me...i dunno...gotta republish this blog properly when i have time...which is wat i dun have now...gotta get ready to do my project...tata..titi..tutu
12/29/2003 03:53:00 ap.